Advantages of the low FODMAPs

(1) Discovering and eating lots of new foods. Spinach and silverbeet are quite lovely. Chia is beautiful, vanillary and sweet. Quinoa is easy to prepare and very delicious. I somehow made an amazing gluten free pasta thing with a tomato sauce. It was better than a lot of Italian restaurants, at least to my tastebuds,

(2) Vogels Cafe Style Muesli is completely amazing. I love it so much.

(3) I can still eat cheese. I love cheese.

(4) It seems when I eat out, the FODMAP foods try to dominate the menu. But once you have a list of what you can eat, it is not actually that hard to make delicious meals.

(5) I have to be extra prepared, so I am eating better. An egg there. A corn thin there, a salad there. It takes planning with a diet like the FODMAP one. I am spending less on food, but eating more quality. Less lollies. My body does workouts most days to stave the chronic pain off. I am fueling it better.

(6) When I am lazy, there is Ti Kouka in Wellington town which has a low FODMAP menu. You know the time when you have a food allergy and are able to eat two items on the menu if you are lucky? Well, this place has a whole menu. Crepes a Go Go have some low FODMAP options. Sushi is also possible.

(7) Fruit and vegetable markets have all the food I need to have a yummy food experience. There were strawberries at market last week for $2.50 a punnet. This was exquisitely exciting because I am allowed to eat strawberries.

(8) I am drinking less coffee. Black coffee is nowhere near as good, and Soy milk is ok, but not as good as my adored flat white.

(9) I have an excuse to cut out some foods I have never liked: onions, asparagus, brussel sprouts. I can now say that this is legitimately on dietitian advice.

(10) It is actually working in some. I have not had a throbby tummy cramp for days.


You decide to audition knowing that it is a very long shot. However, auditioning for more things is the best way of becoming less scared of auditions. After three years back at the singing game, it is time to stretch yourself again.

Your main goal : to get through an audition breathing properly. Breathing properly is important for singing, and it seems to be a skill that you forget as soon as you cross the threshold of an audition room.

You have it all planned. It is set for 16:40. You will go home, warm up, and walk back into town humming to keep those cords warm. You will drink water throughout the day to keep your throat lubricated. 4L is ideal. 

Then you get an email asking you to come at 15:20. You have a bit of a *moment*. Ok, you will bring your music with you, skip out of work for an hour and make it happen. Then you cannot find the music for your set piece. You go through your music three times without success and then hit on the idea of copying it from the library. Not a problem.

Come 13:00, you have not finished your lunch, and your hunger has been replaced by a gnawing in the stomach that means you are not hungry. Yeah, you are nervous, which is potentially a good thing, you decide. Eating is not. Drinking lots of water is.

At 14:30, you leave work and run into an… ex-lover is the best word. A man who brought the worst out of you. You exchange stilted, reluctant recognition faces, and you rush past. You get to the library and find all of the vocal scores, and then scramble around for the one you need. You have the exact change to do the copies. You have been drinking water all day, but your throat still feels patched. It is funny that whenever anyone says audition, your throat takes up the constitution of dehydrated vegetables. 

You rush to the flat you are practicing in, and a bird poos on you. There is no piano. Time for warm up some scales and exercises. Your voice knows your piece’s tuning by the way it sits on your vocal cords, so the lack of piano is not a problem. Makeup is applied as you sing. Not a good idea, you remember for next time.

You reach the venue and fill out a form. Many people hate filling out forms but you enjoy it on these occasions. Writing neatly and precisely is a nice distraction to the jangled nerves in your head. Some other ladies are auditioning and they sound amazing. You would enjoy listening if you did not know you would be competing with them.

You go into the room and sing your set piece. You are not able to do any ‘drama’ with your hands, but try to use your eyes to communicate. The main thing is that you breathe properly.Thanks, you tell your abs, but you resist the urge to pat them. The sight-singing is not hard, but you still manage to compose instead. It is well within your range. A bit of work and you could ace it. The aural stuff which you aced ten years ago is partially beyond you now. Well, you know what you need to work on, and that is ok.

You walk out happy. No, you did not ace it, but you did your best. And you know that what you need to work on is manageable. You call your teacher to tell her about it. Then you are hungry for the rest of your lunch.

I am grateful that I got a chance to do that audition and I am proud of myself for doing it. Getting in. It would be a dream come true, but I am not holding my breath. I am a singer. I need to keep working, singing, and putting myself in awkward singing situations. Only then can I improve.

Hello low FODMAP diet

For many years, I have had Irritable Bowel syndrome. I will spare you the stinky details.

This does not really mean anything medically apart from the medical people knowing that something is not right with my tummy. They are not quite sure what. But I should take my meds and behave myself, even though these meds often cause side effects that make things worse.

Well, since finding out that health professionals have been so wrong about the pain I have had in my shoulder for years, and a number of other things, I have developed a determination infused with skepticism and curiosity that means I will keep seeking answers. My body must be telling me something. I am the one who had to live with this stuff, and it is rather annoying at times, and at times, pretty painful. There is something in my diet that causes these troubles, which may be linked with the inflammation from the CRPS

So I sought out a dietician, and after examining a food diary, she has put me on a low FODMAP diet. I am not going to explain what low FODMAPs are. Many others do that quite well.

I am NOT happy about cutting out mushrooms, milk, and some other marvellous foods, but I intend to focus on what I can eat rather than what I am not able to ingest. I hope and pray that it is the answer, and that it will improve my life quality.

I am going on a shop today. I am happy that I can still eat blueberries, dark chocolate, and rockmelon. Hopefully, this will be the answer.

Blessings in the face of pain

Pain does not go in a straight line up and down. It can take a holiday, and then come back unexpectedly. It seems to have come back pretty badly over recent days, maybe because my life has had some stress recently.

I had the grumpies badly today. My shoulder was killing me. When I corrected my posture to stop the pain under my arm, a muscle near my spine started hurting. My whole right foot was hurting, along with my ankle. I did a melt method class today, and we worked our feet. When the peroneal tendon of my right foot was being worked, it was very painful. I almost screamed. And I am someone who is used to being uncomfortable and in pain. There was also pain on the inside of my right foot. Podiatrist websites tend to divide foot pain into foot pain for people with tiny arches (like my good self) and people with high arches. I get both types because I seem to roll my foot as I walk.

I know the cause: weak glutes. Getting them strong enough to stop this pain is lots of work. Getting them strong enough is a painful process in itself.

My teacher could see how painful it was for me. She has given me exercises and equipment for my bunion already. I had a little cry. She gave me a hug, and I felt better.

Even though things are almighty painful right now, I feel lucky that I have friends I can talk to, a teacher who helps me, and I still seem to be able to work through this pain. I am not on disability. I am about to move into a house on my own, which excites me more than I can say.

So now I need to do some exercises, have a cold shower, have a hot shower, have a nice cup of tea and go to bed. This pain thing sucks, but I am lucky in so many ways.

Dancing: Reasons and Priorities

After my first Ceroc dance class, I was not keen on going back anytime soon. The reason: I was elbowed in the face. It hurt, my glasses fell off. It was five years before I took another class.

Five years later, I was dragged into another class by a friend and I found my Ceroc class to be enjoyable. I enjoyed putting the music in physical form. Recently single, I loved the way my social circle exploded. In short, Ceroc was fun. It still is. But there are many rough edges.

Injuries are one of the rough edges. They are not fun. I was dancing with a guy who used his thumbs, and pulled my arm out suddenly. Sure, my weight could have been sitting differently, which would have made the injury less bad. As it was, I had a sprained arm, and was not able to use it properly for a week. Dancing was out of the question for about three weeks.

Then there was an incident that is best graphically explained:


That one tore my teres minor, and set off a pain syndrome in my back.

These are the worst dancing injuries I have had, though not not only ones. I get that people make mistakes on the dance floor, and I understand that accidents happen. But both of these accidents stemmed from bad technique, and were avoidable. Both were from people who thought they were wonderful dancers, and who would correct me and blame me when things went wrong on the floor.

Thumbs in Ceroc are generally** a big no-no. Some men say they cannot dance without them. Well, I cannot dance with men who use them. It is too risky. My shoulder girdle has had enough problems. Lack of thumbs mean that I can let go if someone wants to pull my arm out of its socket. Lack of thumbs mean that moves will be invites rather than brutal yanks.

As for that lift, well I need to work on the strength of my latissimus dorsi for a number of reasons, but the way that lift was performed did not give it a hope of doing anything. Teres minor had to take the burden. This little muscle just could not do it and was torn. Of course, I was corrected by the guy while this was happening.

Many have injury horror stories way worse than mine. Concussions have happened. I do not want to see how much worse things can get. I have been observing when accidents happen and why, and I have put together a list of what I look for in a lead I am likely to get injured with:

1. Superior attitude without a darned good reason. This is a massive one. If someone thinks they are a good dancer, and always blames the follow when stuff goes wrong, they are less likely to amend their lead and learn from their mistakes. Incidentally, they are less likely to become a good dancer. Many teachers who are among the best dancers in the country will admit to me that a lead did not work due to their poor leading*. If a teacher or advanced student is correcting me, cool. If anyone else is, I will not listen to them. Related: Dunning-Krugar syndrome.

I have often observed that this is a man to woman thing. Men thinking that they are generally superior to women and manspalining. I detest this in dance and in life.

2. Likes doing big tricks with beginners or lower intermediates who have not been dancing that long. Why oh why can’t these be done with people who know what they are doing? The amount of skill in dips, drops and lifts is just as much for the follow. You are putting yourself and the less experienced dancer at risk if you do these with them. Just don’t.

3. Habitual thumb usage (see above)


4. Being a yanker. A thumby yanker is the worst. I always avoid thumbsy yankers.

5. History of hurting other people on the dancefloor and/or being known as ‘rough,’

6. Being a dancer that people avoid.

I hated writing that list. The negativity annoys me, but it is needed, because I need to keep myself safe, and I need to have a strategy for doing this. I do Ceroc for fun, but the reality is, my priority is not enjoying myself. My priority is staying uninjured, because injuries can cost lots of money, stop me from enjoying other things, stop me from being able to cut my steak***, and generally impair my life. I love that Ceroc is all inclusive, with anyone of any body shape, and level being able to dance with anyone else. I feel rotten that I cannot model the all-inclusive approach that I love so much, but I want to stay unbroken, so that I can enjoy it more.

* It is possible that they are just being nice.

** It has been used as a tap tap lead, and thumbs are good in butterfly hand grips, and lifts. Otherwise, keep them away from me. But consistent thumb pressure throughout a dance. Maximum no!

*** This happened when I sprained my shoulder. My mother had to cut my steak for me.

An open letter to my orthotic

Dear Orthotic,

When I was first told that my posture sucked, the messenger thought that my feet were the cause, and that I would need you. The feet are the basis of how you stand, he said, or something like that. I have been told that so many people since. I think that this is rubbish, and my podiatrist agrees with me. It is not the feet, she says.The cause is always above the feet.

I first went to the podiatrist soon after being told that my posture sucked.Within a few weeks, you reached my arms all new and without footprints. Now you look like this:


All of my shoes were purchased to fit you, which meant that my shoes became rather dull, apart from the ones that were PINK. I spent many months without wearing real dance shoes, which are not compatible with you.  You were placed in my shoes to assist with patellofemoral syndrome in my knee and sinus tarsi syndrome in my ankle.

You did a great job with the knee, not so much with the ankle.  My right foot was pronated, or flat. The arch liked to kiss the ground, and you stopped it, and kept my knee from hurting. I appreciate this very much.

You did not really solve the problem though. The problem was my crap posture, and weaknesses in the muscles in my legs and bum. The diagnoses above were only one part of this problem, which is a body wide issue. The cures are many and ongoing – my constant life work: getting fitter, making muscles stronger.

Yet sometimes, I reach a milestone, and become utterly proud of myself. Today is one of those days. I have realised that you are surplus to requirements. I am done with you, it is over.

It is not you, it is me. My muscles are stronger and they can hold my foot up much better, and I do not need you anymore.  In fact, when I wear you, I get a slightly sore peroneal tendon, which means that you are over correcting. Dear orthotic, I do not have time for negging.

We are finished, Thanks for holding my arch up, thanks for everything. But I can do it myself now. It is a skill most people take forgranted. But it is actually hard to acquire when bad posture and gait is the norm.

With Adiosic* Love  

The Whimsical Lady    

*Definition coming

Motives to Exercise

A couple of days ago, a lady at work complimented me on my figure told me that my exercise schedule was working. I thanked her, but one thing that I did not say is that my exercise is not about me looking good, or fitting into any particular clothes. I exercise because it makes me feel good.

One thing that annoys me about many gyms is that they assume that weight loss and looking good is what all women want. There is also an assumption that it should be the aim of any exercise programme. Weight loss is seen as the aim for everyone. Maybe this works for some, but not me.

For me, exercising is about getting healthier. Exercising helps my chronic pain improve, and it makes me strong. The pain is decreasing each day, and I am feeling better that I have in ages. I can wake up without a gnawing pain in my shoulder, or my intercostals feeling like they are filled with battery acid. My ankle and leg are giving me less and less problems, because many muscles are getting stronger,  the imbalances that cause the pain are decreasing.

To say that this is unusual in the middle of winter is an understatement. My symptoms often improve in summer and stage a comeback in winter.  I eat better when I exercise, and I stand better, sing better, dance better. Exercise improves my whole life. Maybe I do look better, but for me, this is a superficial side-effect.

I have to admit that I am now being driven my another motivation. As I reach each exercise goal, I cannot help but smile, and this is getting addictive in itself. Being able to do full press-ups feels amazing. Doing drops at dancing with my core automatically bracing feels most excellent. When an exercise routine that felt hard without weights feels manageable with weights, I feel an incredible feeling of achievement.

So for me,  exercise is about feeling better – because it reduces my pain and gives me an incredible feeling of achievement. Any exercise provider attempting to get me to part with my cash is going to fail when trying to target me about superficial things. For me, it goes deeper than that.

Dictionary of Whimsy: Funzies

Funzies, adjective

1. Situation where something has to be done that is annoying, frustrating, emotionally draining or darn annoying, and where an individual knows this before having to do the something. Therefore, they say this word to take the sting away from the activity, and make it seem more fun*.

2. Sarcastic word for any activity that is not enjoyable to the individual, which attempts to show enjoyment.

3. Word for ‘grin and bear it’ or ‘smile and think of England**’

4. Verbal fake smile

5. Word uttered about an unenjoyable activity to show grit and determination around making the best of said activity. In this context, a fake smile and delighted shrek are needed for maximum impact.

* This seldom works

**This is what Queen Victoria advised her daughter regarding sexual activities with her husband, a German prince.

Hearts filled with love, not anger

“The heart is like a box; if it is filled with rubbish, there is no space for other things. I could not love (my husband) Rodrigo and his daughter if my heart was choked with bitterness.”

Inez of my Soul by Isabel Allende, p.261

In this book, Inez is learning to deal with her lover of eight years dumping her to save his own skin. It is a blow from which she recovers, and she lives a long and wonderful life afterwards with her husband and his daughter.

I like this quote because it inspires me to get rid of the annoyed feelings that I have for some people in my past. When I think those feelings, I remind myself my heart is reserved for thoughts of those I love. My friends,  and my family, and wonderful moments in my life when I listen to music I love, and dance like a lady possessed (by the music of course!!).

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